Embracing the Journey of Creativity
Sometimes, creativity flows effortlessly. Ideas spring to mind in endless waves, each one more exciting than the last. But then, a voice emerges, whispering doubts and finding ways to say “no.” This voice can appear anywhere—during decision-making, workouts, shopping dilemmas, and even trivial discussions. It’s an unwelcome guest, but it’s ever-present.
Battling the ANTs
I recently encountered a positive mantra: squash ANTs (automatic negative thoughts). While I strive to follow this advice, these negative thoughts still manage to creep in. When I review my work, I experience two distinct reactions: “Wow, I did that!” or “Wow, that’s awful.” I aim to fuel the positive reactions, but the negative ones can still cause damage, leading to doubts, pessimism, and fear—ultimately culminating in a fear of failure.
The Comparison Trap
I often compare myself to the greats, to my past work, and to people I admire. In art and life, there is no ultimate endgame. The journey is continuous, with the only true endpoint being death. For me, creating art is essential. The longest I’ve gone without drawing was three to four months during my first year of high school. Back then, socializing and making new friends took precedence over my sketchbook. Romantic pursuits became poems and art, serving their purpose in my creative journey.
Finding Strength in Struggle
In many ways, uncertainty and doubt drive me to work harder and improve. I try not to abandon projects; I might start over, but I rarely quit. Quitting is a last resort and leads to nightmares. I can spend days and weeks on a single piece, but I have an internal clock that tells me when to let it go and return later.
Gratitude and Growth
I’m grateful for my skills, capabilities, and opportunities, but I always strive for improvement. My biggest fan and my toughest critic are both myself. Only I can push myself to the next level. Daily exercises—both physical and skill-related—are crucial. Consistency is key; skipping one day can break the chain. Discipline leads to success.
Conclusion
The creative struggle is a constant companion on the journey of an artist. Embracing the ups and downs, learning from doubts, and continuously pushing forward are all part of the process. Remember, it’s the discipline and consistency that lead to true success. Keep creating, keep improving, and most importantly, keep believing in yourself.
-Augusto Abarca aka Guece
